Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After my session with my caseworker,I headed out to drop my car off at the garage to get it looked at.After that,I headed for home walking.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up some things that I needed and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed by doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a movie in the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,upon awakening,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitalia and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind while I was doing this.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into these temptations.I prayed real hard as I was really sorry for giving into these terrible temptations.After I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew that I was truly forgiven for my sins.I simply went on for the rest of the day just trying to keep my mind off of these immoral things because I didn't want to give into these terrible temptations again.I just kept busy doing what I had to do and that was what kept my mind off of these immoral things.Though I managed to make it through the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and as a result of that,I am vulnerable to temptations to act out as a result of the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA struggle.Please continue praying for me and please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,I am hoping to get a ride to church this Sunday as a result of my car being in the shop,I really don't have nothing much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ