Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I stopped at another local store to pick up a small soup.After that,I stopped at a local 7-Eleven to buy a sandwich.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I put some of the stuff away.After that,I prepared the soup and had the sandwich with it for a light lunch.After I was done with that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and read a little.Later on,I did put a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also planned for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Though SSA is the worst struggle for me,today was a day that I didn't have much of a problem.I had no problems with temptations to act out by fantasies,lusting and to manipulate my genitalia while fantasizing and lusting.I have to say that fantasies and lusting are my two main problems in this struggle.I never know when Satan and his minions are going to try to cloud my mind with sexual images of men to get me to lust after and fantasize with.The thing with this struggle is that I am always at war with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA and the war is always very difficult to fight,especially if you want to do what is right in the sight of the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,but my sinful nature always wants me to do the opposite,which is to sin against my Heavenly Father rather than do what is right because it is easier to give into temptations and sin against the sovereign Lord and creator of all things than it is to fight and resist the urges to sin.Not only that,the more resistance that I put up,even with my Heavenly Father's and his son Christ Jesus' help,the more stronger the temptations come back as Satan and his minions make the temptations stronger than the last time.This means that I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful of the machinations of Satan and his minions as they are out there and they are waiting to strike any time on anyone who worships the true God in the name of his son,the Lord and savior,Jesus Christ.When temptations happen,I need to stay on guard and be watchful and throw each temptation on my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Aside from that aforementioned temptation,I also get tempted to look up online porn,but I close off the internet and I get off the computer when that happens.I also get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but when that particular temptation happens,I simply and willfully choose to stay home rather than feed that particular temptation.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.They both help keep me going and also show that I am not alone in my struggle against the unnatural sexual desires of SSA.I would really appreciate both of these things as I really need all the prayers and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ