Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After eating that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.
I stayed home for much of the day.I had no place to go nor anything to do.I stayed home and watched some TV and I also popped a DVD into the DVD player to watch it.After that,I decided to do some shopping at a local supermarket and the nearby Dollar Tree store for something to eat for dinner as I forgot to take something out of the freezer last night before going to bed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I did some more personal PC work.
After having my light dinner,I decided to pop another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I then decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two that I struggle with.Today,upon arising out of bed and sitting down,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals as sexual images of men clouded my mind,but I was fortunate enough to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I prayed.The thing here is this in regards to me personally is that in the morning upon getting out of bed,my mind is not fully awake at that time and anything can happen at that time.I now have to be on guard against this and when it happens again,I will have to pray for strength from my Heavenly Father and ask him to give me that strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I have to really get tough on myself and really pray hard to my Heavenly Father and ask him to keep me strong during the time upon arising out of bed so I don't fall into sin at that time like I did today.Fellow blog followers,please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right here and now and also,each and every day as I do get tempted by Satan and his minions to sin each and every day.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting the oil changed in my car's engine,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ