Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and I got dressed.I had my usual quick breakfast and after eating that,I went and did my personal PC work.I hung at home for much of the day waiting on my ex brother in law to come and fix the toilet switch.During the early afternoon,I did get a call from a man that I worship with in church and he said that he would pick me up and drop me off tomorrow and I thanked him before we hung up.
Tonight,I decided to eat out at a local pizzeria,but decided when my order was ready to take it home and eat it there.On the way home,I stopped at my ex brother in law's house and after 1/2 an hour and after I ate,we headed over to my house and he fixed the toilet and after that,he left and I did some more personal PC work.I did manage to watch a favorite movie during the middle part of the afternoon.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was tempted to do a lot of things connected with SSA.I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images were clouding my mind and also,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images.I was also tempted to look up online porn,but I managed to close off the internet and ask my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations and I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I asked for that strength and I also told Satan and his minions to get out because I refuse to give them what they wanted me to give them,which was to sin so they would get the satisfaction that they wanted.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also felt much stronger.For the rest of the day,I went through it unscathed,but there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church,including the morning's Holy Bible study class,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ