Tonight,I am really feeling at edge.Apparently,yet another spur of the moment thing happened today.My niece invited me and my mother over for dinner and I was not really in the mood.But I went anyway even though I did not want to because I did not want to arouse the ire of the women in this family.It happens to be a tradition in this family.If I do not accept an invitation for something such as that,I'll never hear the end of it.It will always be the same old loud bickering word exchange whenever a refusal happens.Plus,it was not too appealing or even great.My niece's children were all over the place.My brother in law wanted to have debates about religion and my nephew kept telling me to "Shut Up!I'm Trying To Watch A Movie."even though his father started the debate over this.My family does not believe in having a nice family conversation when we're having dinner together.All they want to do is watch movies and it's usually the same old type of movie over and over.It gets boring after a while and it's not very thrilling hearing negativisms all the while being there.I often wonder what has happened to warm,friendly family conversations whenever a family is having dinner together because sometimes that is what brings a family a little closer and fostering a feeling of warmth.But in my family,all they want to do is watch the same old boring types of movies over and over again and it does get tiresome after a while.I wish that I really did not have to do all of that.I was actually hoping for a nice little quiet dinner at home tonight but this spur of the moment invite was not what I really anticipated.The dinner was okay but the atmosphere was not very positive at all.I am now home and it is pretty peaceful at the moment.I can now think better.
Today,I went to my appointment to see my anger management counselor and that went good.We had a nice talk and now,he'll be handling everything pertaining to me.That is great.No more having counseling sessions with a seperate person regarding my medication management and behavioral therapy.He'll now handle everything.Again,that went good and I am glad that at least one thing worked out the way I had hoped it wouldThe day was not a total loss.One thing worked out and that was good.
I am hoping that tomorrow will be better.It is a work day and I am hoping for a good work day.I hope that nothing negative happens.
Well,that was my day.I am hopingthat the rest of the week works out.As always,comments and upbuilding advice are always welcomed.FJ