Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
The first thing that I had planned was a meeting with a priest to hook up with the group Courage International.The priest and I had a wonderful conversation that lasted for an hour and a half.After it was over,I headed back home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I first stopped at a McDonald's to have a couple of sandwiches to tie me over until I got home for dinner.After that,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I decided to make some more stops and collect some more bottles and cans.After that was done,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle onto my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through all the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calmer and more level.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften.When I was finished,I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,but this time,I managed to escape.The talk that I had with the priest took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I didn't think of anything sexual with men at all today.The talk with the priest really helped me focus on other things.It was great that I talked to him and hopefully,I will be able to hook up with a group real soon.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog regularly to please keep on praying for me.I need prayers every day.I am also asking you that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word of two in the comments section.I need both your encouraging words and your prayers.They both help keep me going.They also show me that there are people out there who care.They both strengthen both my determination and my motivation to carry on this journey and to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.I need some words of positive encouragement day in and day out.I also need prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ