Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.I was getting ready for the job fair that was in my hometown at one of the local hotels on the area.When the time came for me to go,I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed for there.
The minute that I arrived there,I immediately went right to work seeking out possible job leads.I managed to fill out three applications and after they were done,I turned them in and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and I headed out to run some errands that I needed to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I was supposed to meet with a priest today,but due to the job fair,I changed it to Friday.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help me stay on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom,which made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished using the bathroom,I went back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the day,I stayed busy by going to the job fair and running the errands that I needed to run.I stayed busy and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep praying for me.I also ask that you leave me a positive word or two of encouragement.Both your prayers and your continuous positive words of encouragement both help keep me going.They make me more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benfits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ