Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I wok up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby 7-Eleven to buy a sandwich.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a can of soup.After that,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I put the stuff away and I had my lunch.After lunch,I did my personal PC work.I also had a headache and after I was finished,I took something for it and I laid down for an hour and a half and I felt better upon getting out of bed.I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.It is very difficult dealing with this type of thing daily and I never know how my emotions will pan out.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last long.I got up out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and while heading for there,the erection started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but this time,I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help give me strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.I prayed real hard and after I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.I went through the day praying whenever the temptations kept coming at me.Though I have done this today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and your continues emotional encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ