Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that group was awesome.After it was over,I had lunch at a local kitchen and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into dress clothes and I headed back out to turn in another written application.After that was done,I headed back home to change into casual clothes and I ran an errand that I needed to run.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of lounge pants and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.I also relaxed the rest of the day.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calm and level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing with other men.But today,I stayed busy throughout the day as I ran errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual.I simply stayed busy and no sexual thoughts nor urges came at me.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog to please keep up praying for me.I still need your prayers each and every day.I am also in need of some positive verbal encouragement as well.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayers.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help keep my determination and motivation strong.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please don't be shy and leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I need some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of me meeting up with a priest to see if I can get into a SSA support group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ