Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day today but right now,I am feeling depressed.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went pretty well,even though there weren't too many people there.There was just a few people and I was doing most of the singing.I didn't mind.I still got a positive response from the crowd and that made me feel good.
When I got home,I was originally going to go to bed the minute that I got in.But instead,I procrastinated and watched a movie instead.I did get really tired and I do go to sleep.
Earlier this morning,I fell.I once again masturbated.This was the third time this week that I had fallen.I have been on an emotionally roller coaster ride this week since I heard about the death of my friend in that hit and run that didn't have to happen.I am glad that they apprehended the driver that was responsible but I am still feeling sad over my fallings and feeling the absence of my friend who is now gone who I will never see again.It's hard to believe.I talked with him two weeks ago and it was wonderful.He also came to see me sing a couple of times and that was really neat.Now,he is dead and I am still feeling the effects.I miss him already and I wish that this hit and run didn't happen.I wish that he were still here right now.Of course,I know that I shouldn't dwell on this.I am going to move on teh best way that I know how and I am hoping that the pain passes in time.
Regarding last night,I still regret that procrastination.I was hoping to get up early this morning to start going back to church but I was too tired to get up.So,I listened to a radio sermon and that was great.When I finally had the strength to get up,I ate and I got on with the day.
I ran a few errands for my mom and I also had a light lunch at a local Taco Bell.I also stopped at a local dairy to have some frozen yogurt.This was the dairy's last day open.Tomorrow,they will be closed for the season.I was just glad to get something before this happens.Because after tonight,I would have to wait until next year.But it is well worth the wait.
After eating,I decided to catch up on some last minute personal PC work.I also watched a college production of Carrie:The Musical on YouTube.It was great to see this.It is not as bad as the critics said that it was.It was pretty good.I also managed to register a few more bills at the Where's George site and that is great.Overall,a pretty good day.
The depression that I am feeling right now is just a sudden spell.I know that I will feel better after a good nights sleep.This does happen once in a while.Again,this will pass and I will feel better after a good night's sleep.
Before I retire for the night,I am hoping to go out and have a drink or two with the guys at the place where I entertain and I am hoping that I will get some great tlaks with them.
I did have a talk with an out of town friend tonight.He is doing good and we are going to talk again next Sunday.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I am hoping to go to a coat store in another part of Western New York and get a new coat.They are having a sale and I would like to take advantage of the sale before it is over.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ