Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed much of the day reading.
In the mid afternoon,I got dressed and I decided to take a drive out to a city within the county that I lived.It was pretty good to get out and just be out in the community.I stopped at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to see what they had and after looking around,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and relaxed.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD and after it was over,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the SSA struggle being the worst of the two.I am still having to put up with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.It can get pretty monotonous and tiresome most of the time.Not only that,the SSA struggle can drain out both energy and emotions,including emotional energy, and wear anyone out with exhaustion.As I have said before and I will say it again,I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this terrible SSA condition.I wish that I was a whole man as I don't feel like a whole man as a result of this terrible SSA struggle.I want to be a whole man.I want to feel like a whole man.I also want to be the man that my Heavenly Father intended me to be.I wish that I can find some men that I can be friends with,where the benefits are close friendships,bonding,acceptance,affirmation and where I can share anything with them without fear of being judged and rejected as a result of my struggles.I understand that relationships of that sort are difficult to find and I have been praying to my Heavenly Father in hopes that I will start having these sorts of relationships and also,I keep asking that my Heavenly Father points me in the right direction where it leads to relationships of this sort.I need these healthy relationships in order to grow,mature and also,to put me on the path to becoming that whole man that I want to be and want to feel like,including the man that my Heavenly Father intended me to be.I have also been very overwhelmed by temptations and I need prayers for strength.Fellow blog followers,please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Please leave me the positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to church this Sunday,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ