Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed and I headed for my Thursday morning Holy Bible study group.
The group meeting went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after I ate there,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and did a little reading while laying down.
After eating,I got dressed and I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was also wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I never know how these struggles will be any time during the day or the week.Aside from putting up with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia,I also have to put up with the difficulties of SSA,which is a lot more difficult than the psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and also,for me,the SSA struggle is more difficult because of the psychiatric double whammy that I have.I hear voices telling me things to do that are unclean and impure and at times,it is very difficult to fight and resist these urges.The temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can be very overwhelming.I get tempted to manipulate my genitals constantly.I am always asking for strength from my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resists these overwhelming urges.It can be very difficult to resist them.Each and every time temptations of this sort are resisted,the more stronger they come back.I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this terrible thing at times.The SSA condition does little to enhance the lives of others.It only leads to destruction as the sinful sexual lifestyle is connected to is a destructive one where the only thing that one active in that lifestyle can get is that terrible killer disease AIDS,which is something that I would never want at all.I want to heal from this terrible SSA and I also want to be a whole man where I feel like a man inside and outside.Fellow blog followers,please continues praying for me as I am going through this terrible time and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ