Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there.
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
This morning,when I woke up,I ate a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It only lasted for about 45 minutes.I didn't have too much to do.After I was finished,I shut my computer down.
For most of the day,I was at my sister's house where my brother in-law cooked up a great fish fry.It was really neat.I was filled after eating my first helping.I had a great time eating with my family.I even had a small talk with my father while there.I also told him that I would call him tonight to talk with him again.We stayed at the house for quite a while and we headed for home as everything was winding down.
When we got home,my mom laid down and read while I watched a couple of After School Specials on the DVD set that I have.It was a wonderful day and I had a great time.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.The night started out slow but did improve as the night got underway.I managed to get my usual allotment in and I had a pretty good time.
At the moment,I am not feeling any depression.I did have a minor spell for much of the day but I got over it as the day was getting off.I have had no recurring bad dreams nor have I had any flashbacks to my Novemeber accident last year.I am feeling pretty good and I am also hoping that these feelings last for quite a while.I will simply have to deal with the depression when the spells come.But I am just going to enjoy these good feelings for now.I also had another talk with my father tonight and it was a pleasant conversation.I am looking forward to talking with him next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I am having no cravings nor any images clouding my mentality.I am also not feeling any temptation to watch pornography online or otherwise.Still,I need to be on guard.I know that the temptation to watch pornography will come and I will have to deal with this when it happens.I guess that the good feelings that I am having are contributing to my temptations being nill.As stated,I am glad that I have a choice whether to act out or not.I have chosen not to act out when the desires come and that is good.Plus,I haven't masturbated in quite a while.It has been a long time since I last did that.I am hoping that whatever I am doing right is that it continues to work for me.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have an anger management support group meeting tomorrow night and I am hoping that it goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ