Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I only had one small thing to do today,which was for my mother.I had to drop her off at a local supermarket to get her shopping done.After I did that,I paid a visit to my mechanic to see how he was doing and after a few minutes of talking with him,I headed over to the post office to mail out a bill payment that I needed to get out.
After mailing out my bill payment,I headed over to the supermarket to see if my mom was done with her shopping,which she was.After bagging the groceries,we headed for home.
After unpacking the groceries,we relaxed and took it easy for a bit.It was a pretty hot and humid day and we felt that we needed a little rest after all the work that was done.
After eating,I decided to go out to an anger management group meeting.While I have gotten some stuff out of these in the past,I didn't get an awful lot out of tonights meeting.Because two of the men there who were venting their issues were talking about how they wished that they had weapons and that triggered something for me.Instead of losing my temper,I got up and I walked around the place where the meeting was being held because I didn't want to embarass myself with losing my temper and having a fit.So,I felt that a little walk was a better idea.Idid feel better but there was still the triggers and fortunately,I got through the meeting and I have a few weeks off due to them not having any due to the upcoming 4th of July weekend.
When I got home,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before turning in for the night.Overall,despite the negative stuff,it was a pretty good day.
I am not feeling any depression at the moment.I have been feeling pretty good.I guess those little talks that I have been having with my father over the phone on Sunday's have been doing me a lot of good.I have not been feeling the blues as much.I used to get really down on certain days for no particular reason and just lull around in the blues for quite some time.But tonight,as I have been feeling over the past week,I have been feeling the opposite and I am glad for that.It has been just positive for me and I am hoping that these feelings will last.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have had no problems.I have not had any cravings nor images cloud my mentality and that is great.I am also not having any temptation to watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.But again,I know that I will still get the temptation to watch pornography when I least expect it and I will deal with the temptation when the temptation comes around.But for now,I can rest easy because the temptation is nill at the moment.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ