Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went as smoothly as it could.The only disappointment was that there wasn't an awful lot of laundry for me to pick up.But I managed to get through the day and I did get a lot of work done.After I was finished,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some pepperoni for some pizza that we have.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I installed a window fan up in my room and I relaxed for a bit.While relaxing,I watched another After School special on the DVD set that I own.After watching that,I decided to do some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit before posting my day on here.It was a pretty good day and I did get an awful lot done.
Weatherwise,the weather is HOT and HUMID,which was the main reason why I put the window fan up in my room.I need it to keep my room cool in weather like this.For most of June,we had a mixed bag of weather where it was nice and sunny one minute and the next day was raining hard.But now,we are having some humid days with the possibility of rain before the end of the week.
Moodwise,I am feeling pretty good.I am not feeling any depression at the moment and I am also feeling hopeful.The hopefulness is the result of the conversations that I have been having with my father and how well that they are going.I never thought that I would feel an inner peace from talking with my father.I am not as depressed as I have been and that is really great.I am hoping that these good feelings will last for a long time.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can still report that I am not feeling any feelings of the condition right now.I am not feeling any cravings nor any images creeping up into my mentality.I am also not having any temptation to watch pornography at the moment.I am glad to be free of pornography and not only that,I haven't masturbated in a long time.I don't know how long it has been since I masturbated last but I know that it has been quite a while.I am feeling really good as a result of this.I also have to keep in mind that I have to take this as a "One Day at a Time" thing.If I get through one day without any problems with SSA,Good.There is still the day after that and so on.I can never think of "Never Again" because that would be unrealistic.The realistic way is simply "One Day at a Time".I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
I am also keeping an eye on another blog here because the blogger,who also struggles with SSA,is going through a rough period at the moment.He messed up and I offered him some words of encouragement.I am hoping that he gets through this.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ