Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.This hasn't been a very good day for me.
Firstly,the work shift went pretty smooth.I didn't have too much to do and I managed to get everything done in the period of time that I had.After bagging everything,I dropped everything off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
I only headed straight home because there was a Thunderstorm Warning in effect for the area that I am living in and I wanted to be sure that I was home before it hit.
When I got home,I started to do some catching up on some room cleaning and I managed to get 4 garbage bags filled with a lot of paper residue and it was hard to get it done.After I was done with that,I relaxed just as the storm hit.It was a big storm at that and I was glad to be home.
When the storm ceased,I managed to get out to a local Dollar General store to buy some more garbage bags because I am now low on these and I wanted to have more when I continue to do the work that I need to get done.I also managed to get some books gathered together and I am going to donate these to a charitable organization that can use them.I am at the start of cleaning up this mess and I will be glad to get this done.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I was shocked at some really tragic news.The deaths of Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson are the main reason why I am feeling down.Plus,I was once again haggled by a guy over at work.This guy asked me a nonsense question in the form of asking if he could play with my antenna.I did say NO to the guy but he kept ranting and raving up a storm and it made me nervous.This was bad enough and the deaths of Fawcett and Jackson also contributed to the way I am feeling at the moment.These people were both a part of my life.I used to watch the TV show Charlie's Angels and I'm also a fan of Michael Jackson's music.These events really didn't make the day any better and the incident over at work was just so insane.I am just hoping that the rest of the day will end positively.I could use a good night's sleep and I am hoping that it will help dispell some of the negative emotions that I am feeling right now.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also decided to go out for a drive.I stopped to see how my brother in-law was doing.He was busy talking with a guy from the neighborhood that he was in and I couldn't really talk to him.But there are other days and I am hoping to get some more good talks with him.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am going to need a lot of encouragement.I am also going to need the support and advice from all of my fellow human beings at the moment.I don't want to act out nor do I want to watch any pornography.Again,I am going to need some encouragement and support.I am hoping to get some and I just want to get through this difficult time.After having some great days with no depression or temptations,I am now feeling depressed and I know that I will be tempted to do things that would make me compromise or act out.Please fellow human beings,I need some encouragement and support.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes better tomorrow than it did today.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
4 comments:
I'm sorry you're having a difficult time today. Rely on God's grace, and try to keep occupied with things that would tend to keep temptation away — wholesome things to occupy your mind.
May God give you the strength you need.
Hi Fj,
I heard this afternoon about Farrah & Michael, expected it about Farrah since she has suffered so much. We heard about it just before a storm went through, strong winds mainly and didn't last too long but some of the power went out in at work so consequently we couldn't finish so it means an early day tomorrow. Then again its my last day and then off to Florida.
Hope tomorrow goes better for you and agree with naturgesetz, do things to occupy you mind - I thought you might try putting your feelings into a song, sometimes that can be helpful. Just remember, you are loved my friend.
Looks like you're having a few people encouraging you already. That's always hopeful in itself. Praying that you will be well for the rest of tonight, and into tomorrow. I too grow up with those two stars. It point to our mortality as we age. But as people whose homes are in heaven, we can at least rejoice that we have the hope of Christ. Persevere onward FJ. Tomorrow will be a better day, and the day after too.
To ALL
Thanks to all of you for your kind words of encouragement. They are all truly appreciated. I have been awake for only an hour and I am already feeling better as a result. Thanks again.
I am just hoping that the rest of the day turns out to be pretty good. Thank once again to you all.
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