Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.The weather was also rainy and a little windy.As a result,I didn't have too much to do.
This morning,I did my personal PC work and I also waited for a shipment to come in.It was a shipment that I have been waiting for most of the week.I finally got it but it was very agonizing waiting for it to come in.
Today,I went over to my grand niece's birthday party.She turned 9 this year and I went over there to share in the celebration.It was a wonderful party.Though it was,I was feeling a spell of the blues again.I went to the party in a depressive funk.But I didn't let it stop me.I only briefly went home to check and see if the package had arrived,and as stated,it did.After that,I went back to have a slice of cake with the people.
After eating the slice of cake,my mom and I went home and she got a phone call from our next door neighbor.I relaxed and watched a DVD that I put in.While doing that,I got a phone call from a friend of mine saying that he was going to meet me at the place tonight.I told him okay and went back to watching the DVD.
After what I was watching was over,I bathed to get ready for going out.I just wanted to make sure that I was cleaned up to go out.
After my bath,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and post my day on here.
Though I am feeling pretty good,I did have another brief,but mild,spell of depression.It happened just prior to me going to to the birthday party.But as stated,I didn't let the spell stop me from going there and see how my grand niece enjoyed the gifts that were given her.Though depressed,I still liked the sight of her opening her presents and enjoying them.I also took a picture of her while she held up one of her gifts for me.It was a nice party and I was glad that she enjoyed them.
At the moment,I am not feeling any depression.When I got home,I took a couple of St.John's Wort capsules to help ease my depression and they seem to be helping because I am not feeling any depression.I am feeling pretty good right now and that is better than sadness.I am hoping that my time out tonight will also help make me feel better.
I will be going out to sing up a storm tonight.I am hoping that the evening will work out for me.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.I am hoping that everything works out for the better and that I have a blast singing.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.Despite the mild depressive spell,I had no cravings nor images creep up into my mentality.There have been times in the past where there were problems when I was struggling with spells of the blues but today,I was having no problems.This does not mean that I have it beat.I have to be on guard that the feelings will come back when least expected and I'll just handle them when they come.I am also not having any temptation to watch any pornography at the moment and that is great.Still,that temptation will also come when least expected and I will also handle this when it comes.But right now,I am not having any temptation and that is great.
Tomorrow afternoon,we are having dinner over at my sister's house.My brother in-law is going to be frying up some fresh fish for dinner.I can hardly wait for that to come tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ