Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I did have an appointment with a practitioner at the local hospital.This was to monitor my progress on how I am living with the emotional condition that I am struggling with.
Before all of that,I had a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.I also watched a couple more After School Specials on the DVD set that I own.After all of that,I went to my appointment.
My session with the practitioner went surprisingly well.I told her everything that has been happening with me.I also told her about a dream that I had nearly a week ago.I dreamed that I was on a bridge and I accidently fell off the bridge and plunged into the river of water underneath it.This dream woke me up out of a deep sleep.I also couldn't get back to sleep after that dream that night.I told her also about the depression that I was feeling last week.I even shared with her that I got rid of all the pornography that I had in a dumpster away from my house so it would all go to a garbage dump because that is where pornography truly belongs.I even told her about all the conversations that I was having with my father and that the conversations were very pleasant.She praised me about some of the progress that I made and she also made an adjustment in my medication.I told her that the reason why I am talking with my father again is because I want to let go of the anger that I have for my father and that I want to truly forgive him for what he did to the family.She was also going to prescribe me with an anti-depressant to help with my sleep patterns but I begged off.I don't want to be overly medicated.I am not saying that taking medication is not good nor am I saying that it wouldn't work.It is just that I heard so many negative information about anti-depressant medication that I don't want to take any chances.I do value my life but taking a risk like that,I feel,would be too much.I am just going to have to go with the adjustment in my medication and I will hope for the best.
After leaving the hospital,I stopped at my regular drug store to get my prescription filled and drop it off at home.I also headed back out because I had to pick up a few things at a couple of local supermarkets.After doing the shopping,I headed for home and waited for dinner to get ready.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I did register a dollar bill at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am feeling pretty good.I have had no depression happen to me at this moment.I am feeling a little bit better about myself.I am feeling great all over and I am hoping that this feeling lasts for a while.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no cravings to act out nor any images creep up into my mentality.I guess that getting rid of all the pornography that I had has helped me feel better.I also have no temptation to watch any pornography at the moment.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ