Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.But I am feeling hopeful.I am hoping that things will start to brighten after the new year begins.The work shift went by smoothly and I had a wonderful lunch.But I was still feeling anger and depression over what happened on Christmas.The mere fact that my father came into town unannounced with my flight attendant in town also was still fresh in my mind.I know that my flight attendant sister is probably back to work as I am typing this up but the negative emotions and feelings that I felt throughout the weekend were still fresh.Though I had a pretty work day and a nice lunch period after my work was done.I still felt the pangs of negativity and anger.I felt them so much that I actually masturbated earlier this afternoon after I got home from work.Of course,I did ask for forgiveness from God above and I felt better.But the negative vibes that I felt are still fresh.I could not get over having my father in town at the same time my flight attendant sister was in town and staying at my nurse sister's house.I really did not like that situation.It was not a very good situation.But I am hoping that my father is going home soon so I can forget about him being here.He always comes when you least expect him and when he turns up,it's usually at a pretty not too good of a time.
Again,I am hoping that New Year's Eve will make me forget about him being here.If that goes well enough,I can say that it wasn't such a bad holiday season after all.If my New Year's Eve goes well and I have a blast partying up a storm and entertaining the crowd,then,that will make up for that unexpected turn of events on Christmas.I just hope that my nurse sister does not find out where I am at this year for New Year's.At the moment,I am not too fond of her for what happened on Christmas.I mean,my father could have called and asked if it was a good time for him to be in town.She also could have encouraged my father to see if there were any motel/hotel rooms available for staying at within town.But I guess that you can't always get what you want.But what I would've appreciated was some consideration for my feelings.My nurse sister has never shown any consideration for my feelings nor has she cared.I think that it's about time that she has.I just can't stand this stuff anymore.This whole thing STINKS!
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the New Year's weekend and I am hoping that the weekend goes well enough for me to help me forget the negativisms that took place on during the Christmas weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the remainder of the week and the upcoming New Year's holiday weekend.FJ