Friday, March 23, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly.I did my job and that went by fast.I also did some reading of The Anger Wprkbook today.This,unlike The Anger Trap,is more of a spiritual book rather than a secular.It shares scriptures from the Holy Bible and it also offers some ideas on how I can keep my emotions under control.Today,nothing really negative happened to write about and that was good.Again,it was a pretty smooth work day and that was also pretty good.
I am still having the problem of saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there and it is still crushing me.I still would like to STOP doing that because it is bringing me down.I just do not know what I am going to do.If there is a way that I can stop this habit,I would like some advice.Thanks in advance.Though I have not done this in front of other people,I still would like to STOP this.As I have stated previously,I could wind up unintentionally hurting myself or others and that would not be good.I do not want to do that.I want people to approach me and not be afraid to do so.I would also like for them to talk to me and even like having me around.If I don't stop this,the opposite just might happen.That is something that I don't want to happen.
On a positive side,I had a good day and I got through another day without losing my temper.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres defeated the Toronto Maple Leafs tonight by a score of 5-4.It did look bad for Buffalo for most of the game when the Leafs took a 4-1 lead and held on to it for most of the game.Buffalo would rally to come from behind by scoring 4 consecutive goals to defeat the Leafs.The Sabres and Leafs are having a rematch tomorrow night in Toronto.I hope that the Sabres can pull another win over the Leafs tomorrow night and I also hope that they do not make the same mistakes that they made tonight like costly turnovers and stupid penalties.The Sabres barely escaped this one tonight and that was great.I hope that that they can pull it off again and this time without any more costly mistakes.
Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowds.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day.FJ

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Are you saying angry things to imaginary people? Or, are you saying angry things to yourself imagining other people are there watching you?
Are you "role playing" or "beating yourself up?"

When did this start to be a problem? What lead up to this "habit?" Have you discussed this in your group (and asked for advice)?
I suggest to take a GOOD LONG HARD look at yourself, your life and try to figure out what is REALLY making you angry.
I suspect that something else is really bothering you and this angry/negative "talk" is a manifestation.

Your beloved masculine friend for life,
Ward Cleaver