Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day today.I simply ran a couple of errands for my mom and I had a quick lunch of pepperoni pizza while I was out.I really did not do too much afterwards.I just took a drive around town and simply enjoyed myself.I really did not see much of anybody I knew out so I went home and relaxed for a bit until I ate.
Earlier this evening,I had a talk with a friend from New Jersey and he is doing good.I am glad that I,at least,hear from one person who is very concerned with me.It seems that nobody else is concerned with me nor is interested.Aside from that one guy who said that he wanted to patch things up with me and has not returned one call from me for quite a while,I have been having a tough time establishing relationships with other guys.I have given my phone number to quite a bit of guys that I know and I have yet to hear from them.It seems that nobody is interested in talking to me or even interested iun letting me hang out with them.I need to have relationships with other guys in order to overcome these dreaded SSA thoughts and feelings.It seems that I am all alone in this and I have no way of trying to get out.I know the root causes of these feelings and thoughts but I am having a hard time trying to initiate something.Again,I have given my phone number to quite a few guys that I know but I have not heard from any of them,especially that aforementioned guy who always uses the same excuses like "I'm Too Busy" or even "I've Been Extraordinarily Busy.That Is Why I Have Not Done So."Why?I don't think that anybody is that busy not to return one phone call or to talk to for at least a few minutes.Is that too much to ask for?Is a few minutes of time too much to ask for?This is pathetic.I have never heard this thing about a guy being too busy to talk to someone for a few minutes nor have I heard that a person is too busy to return one phone call.I am seeing more and more each day that people care more about making more money or even materialistic goals than they do about what really is important like relationships with other people or family.I feel that relationships with others and family should be top priority and money and materialism a very distant second.Money and materialistic things can disappear as quickly as they come and if you have NO relationships with others,what good is having materialism and money dominating you as a top thing?What if you lose all of that and have nobody to lean on when it happens?Pretty scary,Huh?
Aside from that,last night I sang up a storm at the place that I entertain and it was a grand success.I had a blast.Everybody enjoyed my songs and that was great.It did make me forget about the frustrating day I had on Friday regarding the missing laundry bags.I am hoping that the mystery is solved soon.I would hate it if I had to use red bio-hazard bags to load everything again.Again,I am hoping that the mystery is solved soon.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do not know what I am going to do but I am hoping that it will be special.
That was my night last night,my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ