Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The reason why I am feeling this way is because of what I had just found out tonight while at the meeting.
First off,the laundry pick-up went great.There was no mess to clean up anywhere and I dropped it off and sorted it out at the work site.Afterwards,I picked up something for dinner for myself and relaxed for much of the afternoon.I did do my personal PC work today and even that was great.The day,though it was a little HAZY & HUMID,it was actually not as that as it had been the past several days.It was great to have even minimal relief from all of that.
My appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor went great as well.We talked for almost an hour.This was my last meeting with her prior to her leaving for maternity reasons.She will be assigning me a temporary replacement counselor until she returns in January.I am going to miss her and I did wish her well on her pregnancy and that her conception goes well.
Tonight,while the meeting was wonderful.There was a certain sadness within the group tonight.Apparently,one of the members of the support group had passed away.He was killed in an auto accident.A car hit his motorcycle and he was thrown pretty severely off of his cycle and he hit the ground really hard.According to reports,he died on the way to the hospital.I had heard this on Sunday evening when watching the news.I did not know that it was one of the support group members until I got to the meeting tonight.I arrived there with joy and a lot of enthusiasm over the past few days only to be hit really hard by this tragedy.What was surprising about this was that he was at the meeting last Wednesday evening and he was full of life but now,he's gone.It is hard to believe that he is gone.One minute he was there.The next minute,he's gone.I am now wondering WHY HIM?!He was still a very young man.He was working on a reconciliation with his family when this tragedy happened.Why did it have to heappen?I am going to miss him.He wil be missed by everybody in the group and with the people that he worshipped with.
That is why I am feeling mixed emotions tonight.I was feeling joy and enthusiastic about being at the meeting because I wanted to share what went on with me over the last few days.I am also feeling sadness because a member of my support group at the church is now dead.This death was the most shocking thing to happen this week.It is also the fourth consecutive death where someone very close to me died so suddenly.One minute the people are there.The next minute they are gone.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.I am hoping that the next two days go by smoothly.After the shocking and sad news that I received tonight,the next couple of days I am hoping for to go better.
That was my day today and my hopes for the next two days.FJ