Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Even the pick-up went well enough.I did not have no mess to clean up,which was great.I also had a great lunch and after my day was finished,I dropped the laundry off and headed home.
When I did get home today,I was eeling slightly at edge.Why?Earlier in the day while at work,I got a reminder to come into one of the job coaches offices and the anxiety that something was wrong came over me.I know that I should not have to have this anxiety but I have these anxiety attacks for a long time ever since my work history began.I did learn that there was something there for me courtesy of the organization.I sighed but the anxiety really had a hold on me for that brief time.Not only that,there were a few mishaps.When I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom,the withdrawl went great but when I went to cash a check that I had gotten from the organization,they accidently put my mom's account number on the back of the check instead.Though they fixed it,I was feeling a little angry over this and this anger really enveloped me.Not only that,earlier at work,one of the ladies at the work site had to nerve to bam on the door and give me a hard time about me saying something to myself while in the bathroom.This happens to be one of my problems and I was saying angry things to myself much of the afternoon.I also exploded at a couple of ladies who were looking at me in a strange way.Of course,I did not mean it but I still felt miserable.The only really good things to happen was that I bought the movies Planet Terror and The US VS John Lennon at a Blockbuster Video store in my area.
I was also feeling at edge because I have just learned that the movie about Lenon's murderer entitled Chapter 27 is going to be released in theatres next year in March.This really caught me off guard because I was hoping that we had heard the last of this film and the people behind it.As I have sated previously,I am going to honor the memory and legacy of John Lennon by not going to see this film.I also won't acknowledge that it exists.I will not see it.I will not rent it.I will not acknowledge the movie,either.Long Live The Memory Of John Lennon.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.I also will have lunch and I will also pay the long overdue city tax bill tomorrow.I also have my usual Wednesday night support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ