Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The weather was pretty decent.I was hoping to go to an out of town flea market this afternoon but for most of the afternoon,there were a pretty good bunch of clouds in the sky.It looked like that it might rain but it didn't.The sun did start shining before the afternoon was over and the evening is now starting to set in.I did not do too much today.I simply ran an errand for my mom and I also did something for myself while I was out on the town.Regarding the flea market,I am hoping to go there next week if the weather is a little bit more decent where there will be hardly if no clouds in the sky.
This morning,I wound up staying in bed.I had a bad feeling in my stomach and I had to get up three times to go to the bathroom.I was hoping to start going back to church after a long time of avoiding to do so as a result of what I had been through with my father and his overbearing and imposing manner alongside his fundamentalist type ways and the bad experiences that I had with other religions,including one religious group,whose name I won't mention,that I was involved with for a 2 years and later finding out 8 years later that they hid pedophiles from police and not doing anything to help their victims.But as stated,I didn't feel good and I wound up getting an attack of diarrhea when I had to go a third time,I chose to stay home and rest.After taking some diarrhea medicine,I felt better but I had to get rid of some left over liquid that was still in my system a little later.I am feeling better now and I am hoping that next Sunday,I can start going back to church and having the healthy relationships that I so desperately need to help me in overcoming this terrible SSA that I am struggling with.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was a wonderful night.I reaquainted myself with 2 songs that I had not done in quite a while and even did a song that was requested.I got a rousingly loud round of applause from the crowd with each song that I sang.It was terrific.I had a blast and it was really super duper.I am looking forward to next Saturday night which I hope will just be as wonderful as last night.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the rest of the night and tomorrow.I am thinking of going out to have a drink or two with the guys at the place where I entertain and I hope to have some pretty good conversations with anyone,including any guys,there.After a while there,I will com back home and watch a movie.
Tomorrow is my day off.I also have my anger management/conflict resolution support group meeting tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was the weekend for me and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ