Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today was a not too eventful day.I woke up and ate.I also did my personal PC work and I ran an errand.It was a personal thing that I had to run and I am glad to have gotten it accomplished.It was a small one and again,I am just glad to have gotten it done.
When I got home,I took it easy by laying down.I read while I listened to a little bit of music.I was also waiting for dinner to get done.After getting back up,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to go upstairs to my room and do some cleaning up in it.I put some stuff in an old Avon box.There is still a lot more needed to get done because my room is an unholy mess.I have been upstairs in my own room since my teens and for a long time,a lot of stuff had just piled up and I really didn't have a way of putting it away or putting the stuff in a place that would make my room neater.The mess was becoming an eyesore and I felt that I had no choice but to clean it up.There is still a lot more to clean up and I hope to get that done little by little until it is all clean.I also have to be careful not to add more stuff there because I don't want another unholy mess in my room.Again,there is still a lot more that needs to be done.It is just going to take me a long time to get it done.Also,I need to be more careful not to add more and more that will lead to piles of stuff scattered about.It is about time that I get over the hurdle where I can finally be clean and well organized.
Last night,I did get a chance to entertain the crowd because the place was having dart tournaments over this week.I was pretty disappointed that I couldn't entertain the people but tonight,when I go out to the place,I am hoping that I will get to do it to make up for not doing it last night.When I got home,I watched a movie to kill off the disappointment.It worked.Again,I am hoping to entertain tonight.If not,there is always next Saturday night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,no problems today.I guess that I still need to keep busy and not have my mind on sex all the time.It is time that I seek out some alternatives to getting sex with other men off of my mind.So far,it has been so good.This week was smooth.There is the new week that I have to anticipate and I am hoping to get through the week without being plagued by thoughts of sex and having sex with men.When it comes to men,I want to think pure thoughts of them and not impure.I want to have healthy relationships in the form of friendships and male bonding.I just need to start finding new ways of doing that.The old ways are not working and now,I have to find new ways.If anyone out there can help,please share with me any helpful advice.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have to run errands tomorrow as well.I hope that they work out well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ