Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.There were no messes to pick up when I did the initial pick-up this morning and when I arrived at the work site,I simply sorted everything out and started a couple of loads before parking my vehicle and heading for the social club.
After spending some time at the social club,I decided to concentrate more on my job and get it done.After the initial loads were done,I started two more.While waiting for those loads to finish,I read for a while.I printed some articles from the internet on how to let go of anger and bitterness and overcoming masturbation.I also read a health article that I also printed off the internet alongside these.I am going to try and use the advice on letting go and overcoming masturbation in the weeks ahead.I am hoping that the advice will work out for me.
As the day was winding down after I had lunch,I started reading the book The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brendan Manning.It looks like a pretty interesting read.The stuff that I read so far are the forwards and words of encouragement that were written by the author and a few friends.I am hoping to get an awful lot out of reading this book.After the day was done,I bagged all that was clean and dropped it off at the rehab center.After dropping off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and mailing a birthday card out for my mom,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed because we had rain for much of the day and I didn't feel like going anywhere as a result.
After getting home,I decided to take a nap.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.while trying to sleep,I was having yet another dream of having sex with a man.I don't know what sparked this but as soon as I dozed off,I started having the dream and I was also talking to myself in my sleep to the person in my dream.Fortunately,it was brief and though I almost gave into a masturbation temptation,I turned to my left side and the dream started dying down and the rest of my nap went great.I slept for over an hour and a half.
After my nap,I had a light dinner and finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day despite the brief episode earlier during my nap.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as stated,I did have that brief episode while trying to take a nap.But again,I was fortunate that it was only brief and though I almost masturbated,it didn't lead to anywhere.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week without any problems.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well without any messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ