Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a rare Friday off for me.It is the start of the holiday weekend and I am getting four days off,including the weekend.WHOOPEE!I have four days to forget about the hectic week that I had and I am going to kick back and enjoy it.
Though this was my day off,I still had a lot to do.Firstly,I ate a quick breakfast and I went to our regular bank to withdraw some money for my mom.The money is to take care of some bills that my mom would like to get paid.After getting the money home,I registered it all on Where's George and did my personal PC work.After doing all of that,I proceeded to get on with my day.
The next thing that I did was to go and pay one of my credit card bills.Though it wasn't due until Tuesday,I wanted to pay it off sooner than later.It is now paid and I now have only a few more that need to be paid before the end of the month.I also had to mail out a few more bills that my mom needed to mail out.I also managed to get some grocery shopping done at a local supermarket.These were just a few things that my mom needed for the home and I went out to get everything that she needed.I also managed to get a few other personal things out of the way before the end of the afternoon.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though I am feeling okay,I am also feeling a little depressed.Though I have been reporting having good and positive feelings,I have also been feeling depressive feelings as well.But I am feeling hopeful and I am hoping that the spell will pass soon enough.While in this funk,I have been making spelling errors and correcting them at the same time.Again,I am feeling hopeful that the spell will pass soon and I will be back to normal functioning again.I am still eagerly awaiting the return of the hospital practitioner so I can talk to her about the funk that I have been going through and what I can do about it.The only problem is that she won't be back until this coming Wednesday.I am hoping that I can hang in there until then.I can say that being in a funk like this is not very good and anything can happen.I have been thinking that maybe I do need to take some additional medicine to help me.But I will proceed with caution and hope that I will be alright without having to take some additional medication.I have been feeling alright just taking the lone medication that I am currently prescribed but now,I have been in a depressive funk where I am feeling that there is no way out.Don't get me wrong,I know that there is a way out but the feeling of "no way out" is with me at the moment.Still,I am feeling hopeful that I will get out of this soon and when I do,I hope to feel a lot better.
The only positive thing about this is that it is having no impact on my SSA struggles.I am not having to contend with any images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am also not having any temptation to watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.In the past,when I was depressed,porn was a coping mechanism but now,I have no craving to watch that garbage.If I do indeed get the temptation,I can simply close off the internet and get off my computer.But at the moment,I am not having the temptation to watch it.Overall,this has been a good thing.
As for the weekend,I will be taking it easy and going out to sing tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the holiday weekend ahead.FJ