Tonight,I am still feeling down.I have been in this depression for far too long.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early afternoon and I had a quick breakfast.After that,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.There really wasn't much on anyway and I proceeded to get on with my day.
The only thing that I did do was that I went to a local supermarket to pick up a pound of butter.My mom needed it for something and she asked me to get it for her.Before I bought the butter,I went to the supermarket cafe to have a slice of pizza to tie me over until dinner.After paying for the butter,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the butter in the refridgerator and I sat down to do my personal PC work.After that,I watched a DVD of an After School Special from a DVD boxed set that I have.
While eating dinner,I watched the evening news and relaxed for a bit after eating and I again did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.
I am still feeling depression.I have been feeling this way for a long time.I have also been having these terrible dreams.These dreams are of me killing myself.I don't know why I am having these dreams nor how they started.If anyone out there can give me any answers or advice on how I can stop having these dreams or what they mean,please do so.I would appreciate that.I have been doing everything in my power to help alleviate the symptoms but I can't snap out of it.I have been taking my medications.I have been working and socializing when I can but I am still depressed.I hope that I can get out of this funk soon.I also hope that I can stop having these terrible dreams.I am already at the edge of my whim and I don't know whether I am coming or going.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have a lot to do.I have to pick up my income tax refund check from the tax office.I hope that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ