Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to simply go out temporarily and shovel the sidewalk for the mail people to come and deliver my mail.I was stuck at home much of the day because the city snow plows plowed the bottom of my drive way in and I know that I couldn't get out of the driveway to do things that I needed to do.I simply went back in the house and watched a couple of DVD's while having a couple cups of hot chocolate.I relaxed for much of the day and I am hoping that I might be able to get out tomorrow to do what I have to do.
After eating,I simply watched a few more holiday themed DVD's while relaxing and I decided to get ready for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men,but this time,I grabbed the bull by the horns and I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.After that,I stayed busy by watching DVD's all through the day.It took my mind off of the sexual aspect of SSA and I felt better.Still,I need all the prayerful and emotional support that I can get.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately and now.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section.Please also continue praying for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I am hoping to get out and do what I have to do.I am hoping that my family will come through for me and blow all the snow at the bottom of the driveway so I can do what I have to do.If it doesn't happen,then I guess that I have to hang out at home again.
That was my day today and my hoped for plans for the next day.FJ
2 comments:
I am very very sorry for your loss FJ.
Remember that none of us are ever really alone, the Lord is always with us, protecting and guiding those of us who are know him in our hearts, those of us who are seeking him out and those of us who are still lost.
It's not right that you rarely get any comments on here, so I will try and read and comment as often as I can.
I hope that you had some good DVDs to watch today...
My love to you brother,
Brandon K
Brandon
Thanks again and also, Thanks again for the encouragement about the Lord. You are right in that we are never alone with the Lord watching over us and helping us. I am simply feeling alone in regards to being on Earth as there are hardly any programs in my home area that help men like me who struggle with SSA.
Right now, I have been meeting with a priest once a month in hopes of getting into a Courage group in the near future. I need to meet other men so I can experience some real love and real acceptance by other men. I meet with him this Friday.
Thanks again Brandon and by the way, do you also have a blog? Just curious. If you do, Thanks in advance for sharing it.
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