Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
The main thing on my agenda for today was my session with the priest.After getting some gas and doing a little shopping at a Salvation Army thrift store on the way,I headed over to his office and I was looking forward to this session as I always been looking forward to them.
The session was wonderful.I shared with him everything that had happened since we last talked and also,I shared with him my latest fall today,which I will be sharing before the end of the post.After our wonderful talk,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby public library to register a ten dollar bill and the Where's George website.After that,I stopped at an AMVETS thrift store that was in the area and I bought a few tapes.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit to relax and take it easy.I also did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a holiday themed DVD and watched it while relaxing.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also did some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and my struggles with SSA.Today,I did give into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind while doing so.After washing my hands,I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I left nothing out and I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin.After I was finished,I did feel better and I did truly believe that I was forgiven.Still,I need to work on avoiding falling into the trap of habitual sin and I am still working on getting tough with myself in regards to that.I am still a work in progress and that is okay.The thing is since I live alone,the temptations to act out are getting stronger and I really need to work on making prayer a part of my daily life.Right now,the only time that I pray is at night before going to sleep and while that is good,I need to start doing it more often during the day and again,it is one of the goals in my walk with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.I need to start praying more than that just one time at night.I need to really bring myself closer to my Heavenly Father and really pray and sense his presence when I am praying.While I am still working on that,I am again asking that my fellow blog followers please continue praying for me and also,please leave something encouraging in the comments section.I need these things day in and day out to know that I am not alone.I only feel alone when nobody says anything in the comments section.Both prayerful and positive verbal support are always appreciated.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ