Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since it was raining for much of the day,I stayed home and relaxed.I simply laid down and listened to a sermon on CD that I received as a gift from a ministry that I asked some spiritual questions at one time.After that sermon was over,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on DVD and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement later on as evening was approaching.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though I am a little scared to share this and feel embarrassed at the some time and also,feel ashamed that I did,I did give in again to temptation and I was really miserable after that.I gave in by genital manipulation to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I asked that he forgive me and show me his mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I need to really work on myself.I have to stop this constant pattern of falling into sin and asking for forgiveness.I have to really go to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.