Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed as I had to head over to the job placement agency to sign a few more papers and after that,I headed back out to drop something off at my workplace for my supervisor to sign.After that,I headed out to pay a couple of bills,one to mail out and one to pay in person.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy myself a light lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put some of the stuff that I bought away and I ate my lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and later on,after I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.However,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle of the two for me.I know that I have not been talking too much about my struggles.Tonight,I need to talk a little.During the week when I was in a very dark place emotionally,I was miserable as a result sinning repeatedly.During the time in the dark place,I didn't pray very much.I was too depressed and sad to talk.I sinned repeatedly by looking up sexual images of men online.I also gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after them and I sank deeper and deeper into misery,sadness and depression.There were times that tears came out of my eyes and I at times felt that I could not go on.That Saturday night,November 1st,I prayed and laid everything on my Heavenly Father and I did feel better.Last night,I didn't really talk to my Heavenly Father,but dozed off in bed with the light on.I have not been trying to stick to my resolve in drawing closer to my Heavenly Father and I do feel miserable for not doing so.I am hoping to start doing so hopefully tonight before I go to sleep.I know that I need to draw closer to my Heavenly Father in order to start healing and overcoming.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both your prayers and positive verbal support daily and often.Please pray for me that I draw closer to my Heavenly Father and if anyone out there can advise me in that area,Thanks.I need advice and I also need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow or perhaps Friday,I am going to call a psychiatric center to arrange an appointment.I still need to get these issues of anger,resentment and trauma resolved soon so I can finally discover healing and work to overcome SSA and other things.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with someone at another local agency,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ