Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I went and did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing else to do.
Later in the afternoon,I decided to get out and buy some microwavable dinners to have for dinner tonight.After paying for those,I headed back home to heat them up.
After I was done eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to get ready for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I must talk about something that I need to talk about.This morning,upon arising,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I went to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.The prayer was about some things that I needed to get off of my chest.What motivated this was a couple of posts here by a regular follower and reader of my blog.Those posts made me realize something in my SSA struggle.Lately,I have been relying more on myself and my own personal strength rather than on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.This is why I have been giving into temptations an awful lot lately.I also realized that not relying on my Heavenly Father and his son is,in itself,a sin.I have also been neglecting lately to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer quite a bit.Not doing this,I actually was letting Satan and his minions in to make me stumble and fall and every time I stumbled and fell,it made me miserable because I knew that that the things that they were making me were wrong and unacceptable.When I went to him in prayer,I unloaded all the sins that I committed during that time.I unloaded everything from all the fantasies and lusting to the giving into the temptations surrounding these.It was terrible that I was giving into these terrible things.I have been at the bottom lately as a result of some negative things happening in my life,with the worst being that two weeks ago,I learned that I was let go from my job,with the reason being that they are going to start with new people and also,because the then head chef,who hired me,resigned from his position.I was heartbroken by this report and now,I am back at square one in regards to my job status.Again,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and confessed every sin.I left nothing out.I prayed and I prayed.I unloaded everything in prayer to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Again,I left nothing out as I prayed.I also said that I was sorry for not relying on him and his son in my struggles and I repeatedly begged for his mercy.I didn't cease praying until everything was unloaded and also,while I was praying,tears were coming down my eyes because I really was sorry and really wanted him to forgive me and to be merciful to me as well.When I was finished praying,I felt a whole lot better as I felt that a very heavy weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.I also felt better because I truly believed that I was forgiven.After that,I went on with the rest of the day.I also asked for strength to help me in my struggle for today.I now have to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to ask for this strength daily and not just when I need it.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to also keep me in your prayers.I still need need your prayerful support constantly.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support constantly alongside your prayers.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone and that there are people still behind me every step of the way in this struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ simply for being there and for everything that they both give.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ