Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I relaxed and watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.
Today,I had no place to go and nothing much to do.I decided to take it easy and rest my mind.After the stresses of struggling with the conjunctivitis that I battled for over a week,it was great to rest my mind and relax.While relaxing,I caught up on some much needed work on my computer.As the afternoon was winding down,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
Tonight,I am going to talk about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles.I rarely shed light on these as I have been talking more about my SSA struggles while ignoring these.Lately,I have been going through an up and down period and it has also been affecting my symptoms with Schizophrenia.I have been hearing voices telling me to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have.They try to get me to manipulate my genitals and also,to fantasize and lust alongside this.I hear these voices repeatedly most of the time and it scares me.It's like that though I live alone,the feeling is that I don't with all of these voices bugging me and at times,it's like I am being tortured by them to act out or else.The thing is that my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia actually make my SSA struggles even more difficult as a result of the up and down emotional roller coaster ride of BPD combined with the hearing of voices and other hallucinatory sounds of Schizophrenia.It really makes the struggle really rough for me.The struggle with SSA is difficult in itself alone,but when having a double whammy of BPD/Schizophrenia,it makes the struggle even more difficult.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of the support of all of you daily and often.I am still all alone and I need affirmation daily and constantly.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ