Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and watched a little TV for much of the afternoon.I also laid down and read for a while as I listened to some music.
Later on,as the early evening was approaching,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for a local church for a free meal,which was wonderful.After that,I for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up an ice cream treat.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the ice cream treat in the freezer and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I watched a little more TV before preparing to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can say that I wasn't tempted by the unnatural desires that I have.I will continue to keep up in my prayers to my Heavenly Father so I can hope to conquer this terrible SSA and hopefully,also to heal and overcome it.At times,SSA has stressed me out and at other times,I don't know whether I am coming or going.I am learning day after day that the SSA struggle is a difficult one,but my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia make this particular struggle even more difficult because I have to also put up with sounds and voices that only I can hear and nobody else can.At times,I hear voices telling me to grab my private parts and mess with them and when that happens,sexual images of men cloud my mind.There are times that I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this terrible condition.I know that it isn't my fault that I struggle with SSA as many factors and experiences in my life contributed to my struggles that I had no control over.Still,I am not letting those things be a crutch to me as I am going to continue in the fight and I am going to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer a lot more so I can finally conquer this terrible thing.I also still need prayers from all of you.I also still need some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.I need to be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ