Tonight,I need to get a few things off of my mind and onto here.

Today,I went to see my therapist,only my therapist canceled and I didn't know about it until I got to the office.However,better than nothing,I had a talk with the psychiatrist and it was very good.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and took it easy.I got my internet back on today and it's great.I simply did my personal PC work and later on,I had myself a warmed over leftover bowl of homemade chili.After that,I did the dishes and did some more personal PC work.I then relaxed for a while and when it was time,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Fellow blog followers and readers,I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I've been feeling really depressed about them as they are making me feel miserable.I'm still struggling with mumbling angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I also got into trouble at my job as a result of that.Apparently,most of the clientele there at the facility have been making complaints about me and this to the supervisors and I got a serious talking to by them as a result.It really made me feel so miserable and sad as a result of this.I could've lost my job as a result of this and I felt that I came pretty close to losing my job as a result of this terrible thing that I have.I've been saying these things that are very hateful and hurtful under my breath for a long time.I'm still struggling terribly as a result of this terrible problem.It's not simply the clientele at the facility,but I've also been saying very hateful and hurtful things about my co-workers at the facility as well,by saying that I can't stand the sight of my co-workers and that I hate each and every one of them.I don't know why I can't stop doing this.I don't know why I keep saying these terrible angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.As a result of this terrible problem,I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I also don't feel like I am.What I mean by that is this;I'm supposed to be a Christian.I'm a church going guy who loves going to church and having a share in the worship and sharing in Holy Communion when it is the Sunday's that it is being had.But I feel like the opposite.Instead of feeling like a and being a Christian,I feel like I'm the most evil person anywhere.I feel like a terrible and worthless excuse for a human being.I also feel like a terrible and worthless excuse for a Christian.Instead of being and feeling like a Christian,I feel like I'm pure evil.I want to stop,overcome and contain this problem once and for all.I want to get the most of my life and also,I don't want to lose my job.I can't seem to stop this terrible problem.It's really been a crushing weight on me.It's also been a terrible assault on my mental and emotional states as well.As I said,I don't know whether I'm coming or going as a result of this terrible problem that I have.I feel like I'm under the control of some evil spirit or something of that nature.I want to stop this terrible problem,but don't know how to stop.

Please continue praying for me that I stop,overcome and contain this problem for good.I also still need some very helpful advice within the comments section.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Please share what has helped any of you if any of you have had this particular problem yourselves.Maybe what worked for you can also work for me.It wouldn't hurt to share what has worked for you.I'm really desperate and I need all the help and support,be it prayerful and positive verbal helpful support,that I can get.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that the entire weekend goes well for me.FJ