Happy Halloween Everybody.This is the night of thrills,chills and scares.It is also the night of watching horror movies non-stop.Speaking of which,I bought a new 75th Anniversary of Dracula on DVD today at Wal-Mart.It is a 2 DVD set of a the movie.The first DVD is the original Universal Picture Studios classic w/Bela Lugosi in the title role.It has commentaries by film historian David J.Skal and Dracula:Dead And Loving It's screenwriter Steve Haberman.It also has a Philip Glass composed film score performed by The Kronos Quartet(the movie originally did not have a film score due to the fact that it was made during the depression of the early 1930's and Universal had no money to pay a composer to write a score)but you have to select it from the Features menu before you hit Play to watch the film.Plus,it has two great documentaries.The first being a tribute to the great actor Bela Lugosi hosted by director Tod Browning and the next one is called The Road To Dracula,which is a behibd the scenes look at the making of this great film.The second DVD is a Spanish language version that was filmed at Ubiversal Studios at the same time as the American version.The differences is the cast,the director,and there was also a score.It is also in the Spanish w/optional subtitles in English,French and Spanish and an optional Englash dubbed audio.The American version was filmed during the day and the Spanish version was filmed at night.This also has an introduction by Lupita Tovar Kohner,who was in the Spanish version and there is also a Kenneth Branagh hosted documentary on Universal Horror Movie Classics.Plus,the Spanish version is 29 minutes longer than the American version.The American version is 75 minutes long.The Spanish version is 104 minutes long.
Today,worked went well.We had a little party where we watched Young Frankenstein and had pizza and chicken wings.We also had doughnuts,cupcakes and cider for dessert.It was a good day.I was in a great mood and it was also fun.Who says Halloween is just for kids only?
I was tired when I got home today.I laid down on my bed and I took a nap.As I had slept,visions of men with erections danced in my head and I kept hearing things like "I Need A Blowjob" and "I Want You To Suck My Dick!"I woke up with a horrendous erection in my own right and I had a craving to actually masturbate.I do not know what kept me from doing it but the craving was strong.My erect penis was also throbbing like crazy like it was waiting for me to masturbate it away.But again,I resisted and it fell limp in a few minutes.Again,I do not know what strengthened me at that point but it worked.Usually,I am not very good at resistance.I usually give in and ask for forgiveness later in prayer when I do.I think that masturbation has a negative effect on my healing process because it is acting out in a psychological sense(fantasy purposes)and I feel that it will only make my struggles with SSA worse.I always feel guilty when i masturbate because I do not feel that it is right to do nor is it a healthy way of relieving myself of sexual tensions.
I would like to know what a lot of you people think.What can I do to improve my strengths in resisting this temptation when it comes around.Any advice would be helpful.Thanks.FJ