Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The work day went by pretty smoothly but I am now feeling angry.
After work,I went home to relax a bit before taking my mom holiday shopping.I was a little tired and I needed some relaxation time to collect my thoughts and to recharge.
The shopping trip went as well as planned.My mother got almost everything that she needed to forget but she forgot a few other people.After shopping,we had two homemade sandwiches from Subway when we got home after purchasing them at a Wal-Mart location.
It was after we bought the sandwiches that my mom forgot the few other people that she was supposed to buy for.This is one of the reasons why I am feeling anger.The major reason is because my mom asked if she could borrow some money to make up for this.I am just wondering to myself WHY?!
It never fails.Each and every time I get ahead financially,I always have to loan my mom money.I am beginning to wonder.Is that woman psychic?Does she always know every time that I am ahead financially is the time to pester me for money?This is the main reason why I am feeling angry.I have my own money problems and this is what I don't need.I am already having enough stress trying to get my niece to pay her half of the insurance money ahead of the due date and now this.This is really starting to drive me up the wall.I understand that I sometimes have to do a little bit more for my mom but this is getting ridiculous.I felt that my mom should have thought twice before buying sandwiches from Subway because each time she makes a mistake,I end up bailing her out.This is becoming monotonous.I know that I will get paid back next month but I was hoping to use that money for gas for my car.Oh well.I guess that I will be bailing my mom out each and every time I turn around.This is why I am thinking of trying to be on my own.I am getting tired of taking care of this lady.I need to take care of myself and I sometimes can not bail my mom each and every time.If I am ahead money wise,I want to stay ahead.I should not have to bail out certain family members each and every time.At least,it is the way that I feel about it.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.I am also hoping that the weekend goes better for me as well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and weekend ahead.FJ