Tonight,I am feeling okay.I am feeling a little bit depressed and tired.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly and I also had a good lunch before starting my shift.It was a pretty good work shift and I got a lot done in the period of time that I had.
The weather was what really affected my mood.It rained almost the entire day.The reason why I am feeling depressed all because of rain is because I am still hoping that the roof can get fixed soon.I am getting sick of pouring water out of the bucket that is under the leaky spot.I am hoping that this rain stops soon.Most of the rain that we are getting are the remains of Hurricane Ike as it weakens into a depression.I am hoping most of this dies down soon so the roof can get fixed because I am sick of that leak and I am tired of pouring out the water that leaks into the bucket.Not only that,we have been getting a lot of rain since this Summer.The song "Rain,Rain Go Away" is buzzing in my head constantly and I am getting rather sad as the rain is coming down.Again,I am hoping that the rain stops soon and that the roof can get fixed soon as well.
I only ran 2 errands.I went to the post office to mail out a bil that needed to be paid and I also had to buy a couple of things that my mom needed.While doing these things,I cashed my paycheck at my employers bank.When I got home,I decided to stay home for the rest of the day because there was really no place to go when the day is rainy.
After eating,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and I also did some much needed catching up on personal PC work,which included sharing my day and how I feel on this blog here.
I am also feeling depressed because I did take a peek at some Gay porn online.I feel miserable because I am not supposed to be looking at that stuff.I am supposed to be on the path to obtaining my true gender identity and I know that looking at porn of that nature only reinforces the Homosexual/Gay identity.I am hoping that whoever reads this blog prays for me because I do need the strength to resist the temptation to look at Gay porn.I also DO NOT want to start over having sexual relations with men in any way shape or form,even though I have been having cravings to do that lately and I don't want to give up and surrender over to those unnatural desires because that isn't going to give me any positive fulfillment.Again,any prayers would be appreciated.I would also appreciate any advice on how to resist the temptation to look at Gay porn.Thanks.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd over at the place where I entertain tomorrow night and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.As for the rest of the weekend,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ