Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty dull day.But I did manage to get out and do something.The only thing that I did was that I went to a nearby drug store to pick up a few things that my mom needed.It was quite a bit of things.But I managed to get it all in one day.I also picked up a few things for myself and that was great.After paying for them,I called a taxi cab to go home because it was quite a lot of things and the bags were heavy.Plus,my mom felt that I would be a target for robbers and thieves.After I got home,I ate dinner and I relaxed for a bit.
On the way to the store,I almost was the target of an inconsiderate driver in a Ford Explorer.I was waiting to cross the street while climbing up a small mountain of snow,the driver drove through an All-Way Stop sign and didn't even bother to stop.This really scared me.Fortunately,I hesitated crossing because I probably would have been hit by that driver if I didn't do that.The only positive thing to happen was that I ran into a lady that I graduated with 18 years ago.She told me that she was doing fine and asked me how I was.I answered the same.I then did my shopping.
After eating,I decided to do some CD recording for my mechanic.I was hoping to do 2 of them but only wound up doing 1.I will be taking this to my mechanic tomorrow and I hope that he enjoys it.I also had a talk with a friend of mine who lives out of town and that was a great conversation.
I also have some confessions to make.I have been hiding some stuff from here.It is regarding my struggles with SSA.I have been hiding things that I should be confessing.
I have been falling into sin as of late.I have been scoping up Gay pornography and looking at pictures of naked men and I have also had lustful thoughts of other men.I have also manipulated my own sexuality and masturbated at the point where I was almost at an orgasm until the ejaculation happened.I did regret this but ever since I have had no vehicle as a result of the non-stop repair work.On Tuesday,my joy turned to depression when I had to have my 4X4 towed back to the garage as a result of an anti-freeze leak.I feel that if my mechanic's assistant fixed that ball joint problem,he would have noticed the leak and informed me of it.I had to learn about it while driving it.This really made me angry.All of that anger transformed into me having lustful thoughts and I have been falling into sin and regreting it later.I need help and I need some prayers.If anyone out there is readingthis,please say some prayers for me so I will not fall again.I am also hoping that my 4X4 will be ready by next week.I miss my friends and I miss going out and having fun.Again,please say some prayers for me.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have to drop off some money tomorrow at my mechanic's garage alongside the CD that I made for him.I hope that everything goes well for me tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ