Tonight,I am again feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
The work day was fair.It started out pretty frustrating.When I went to the rehab center to pick up the laundry,I found that there was an unholy mess there.There was dirty laundry piled on top of more.This really set me off balance.The rehab center sent two people to help me pick it up but they were griping for much of the pick-up.I didn't say anything.I just did the clean up and didn't even bother complaining because complaining would not have done any good.I just wanted to get the laundry bagged and head over to the work site.
When I got to the work site,it took me 1/2 an hour to sort it.I started two loads and I headed over to the social club next door to hang out while waiting for the loads to get done.
During the wait for the second loads,I read another chapter in the book The Ragamuffin Gospel.This is a pretty fascinating book.It talks about the love of God through his son Jesus Christ and the grace that comes with it.I am enjoying this book immensely.After the second loads were done,I started another two loads and had lunch.
After I ate lunch,I decided to go and get some gas in my tank before finishing off the shift.It was pretty easy and the rest of the day went pretty fair.I was still feeling frustrated from that messy pick-up that I had to do and even hearing the negative complaints from the clients assigned to help me.I did tell the staff about it when I dropped off the clean laundry later in the day.Apparently,these people didn't like to be disciplined.
Oh Well!
Some people don't seem to realize that discipline is a part of life.Without it,where would we be?Even I get disciplined at times and even though the feeling isn't pretty,discipline helps mold you and it also helps make you a better person.It doesn't have to be liked.Just accept it and apply it to your life.
When I got home,I picked up a bag of my wet laundry after my mom did it early in the afternoon.I decided to take it to the laundromat and dry it and give my mom a break from hanging it up because she is feeling back pain at the moment.I was glad to do it.It only took 1/2 and hour to dry and after that was done,I headed over to the store to pick up a half gallon of ice cream.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I also watched the evening news for a while after finishing it.Overall,a pretty so-so day that actually turned out fair.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had only a brief episode while my time on the job was winding down.The root cause of this was the frustration that I was feeling as a result of how the day started.When this happened,I hung out for a while at the social club next door and this helped alleviate the images that were clouding my head.The images disappeared and I was able to finish off the job today with no problems.
I still have to deal with the temptation to watch pornography while online.But I am handling that as it comes.At the moment,I am not tempted to do that but I know that the temptation can come when least expected and I have to be on guard.The minute that I am tempted,I simply close off the internet and I leave the computer alone for a while.This has been working,so far and I will find other ways to deal with the temptation in the near future.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes better than the pick-up today.I don't know what would happen if I encounter another mess.I will just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ