Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to my usual hair place to get my hair cut.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another holiday themed cartoon on DVD and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.Today,I am hoping to finally stop obsessing over members of my own gender.I have been fighting this obsession for a long time.I have been seeking advice,mostly by Christian counselors and Christian ministers,about how I can stop this terrible obsession.I don't want to be obsessed with men anymore.I want to think pure,wholesome,healthy and clean thoughts about my fellow men.I want to look at them as brothers in the Lord and not as sexual objects to lust and fantasize over.I have to continually keep in mind that men were never meant to satisfy selfish and lustful desires in the realm of Homosexuality.The sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,created man and woman,Adam and Eve,and only approves of healthy Heterosexuality and not Homosexuality.Don't get me wrong,I understand that our Heavenly Father doesn't condemn the Homosexual condition in itself nor does he condemn any man or woman for having the sexual feelings that are connected with the Homosexual condition.The thing that he does condemn is the sexual activity associated with Homosexuality.Our Heavenly Father condemns the sexual activity between two members of the same gender.He doesn't approve of it at all.This is why I need as well as want to stop obsessing over men.I also still have to keep in mind that obsession leads to nowhere and can only get an obsessed person into trouble.I don't want to get into any trouble over this obsession as I want to break free from it and overcome this terrible obsession.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need some helpful advice on how I can break free from this terrible men obsession that I have.If anyone has anything helpful for me,especially if any of you had this same obsession,please share with me what worked for you and I will give it a try.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of taking my car to the garage to see why my fan for the heater isn't working and I am hoping that it isn't very serious,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever O choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ