Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair and not too eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I went out to shovel the sidewalk for the mail people.After coming back in,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I went back outside to shovel the snow out of the driveway.After that was done,I went back inside the house to relax and take it easy.I did watch a movie today that I popped into the DVD player.I relaxed for a while and after that,I prepared a light meal for the evening.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair and not too eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation to fantasize and lust after other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind at three separate intervals of the day.After the third occurrence,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I let everything go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I also begged for his mercy as I asked him to forgive me.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I need to really start getting tough with myself.I have to stop fantasizing and lusting after men.Since I was home all day due to the Wintry weather that my area is having,it made me vulnerable to temptation and I gave into it.I was repentant of it and I know that my Heavenly Father has forgiven me.I just have to stop this cycle of sinning and repenting.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires that I have own me.I have to work on owning them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am going through a very rough time.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support really matters to me.It is also very important.I am always in need of prayer and positive verbal support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ