Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I would wash my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to another local garage to see if I had a coolant leak anywhere.
The second opinion was the same as the first.This particular garage informed me that there was no leak anywhere and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and since I was having leg cramp pain in my right leg that I had since this morning,I took a few leg cramp pills and laid down for a while.After getting back up,though I was feeling a little bit better,but still had some pain,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation this morning upon getting out of bed.I manipulated my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind,but fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to be merciful to me as I fell short today and I was really sorry.I prayed and I prayed.I left nothing out as I prayed.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I can't fall into the trap of falling into sin and later repenting.I have to work on constantly going to my Heavenly Father and asking him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges.I can't keep giving in to them.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I need all the support that I can get for this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ