Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the silk,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to with draw some money at the bank.After that,I went home to register the money at the Where's George site.After that,I headed back out to the recovery center where I am seeking therapy to pick up my flash drive.After that,I stopped in at a nearby used record store to check up on something and after that,I got some gas at a gas station and when that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store when I got back into tow,After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a can of chili for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did some more personal PC work.When that was done,I heated up the chili and I ate it.After that,I watched a little TV and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,there is something that I need to get off of my chest.I was overwhelmed by temptations today.Sexual images of men clouded my mind today.I also heard the evil voices in my head telling me to act out on these images by fantasizing and lusting after these images.I almost gave into these terrible temptations today.This is what's been really bringing me down.I don't know whether I am coming or going.Why can't I shake this?what is wrong with me?Why can't I break free from this terrible obsession that I have?I have been trying for the past several years to break free.I was doing well during the first few years that I entered the healing process from SSA,but now,these things have been coming back with a vengeance.I want to break free.I need all the help and support that I can get.Any advice would also be appreciated.Plus,the main thing that I need are your constant and continuous prayers.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need all the helpful advice and support that I can get.I am all alone here and until I can find a proper support outlet for SSA,I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get from all of you fellow blog followers and readers.Please continue to pray for me.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Wednesday morning group,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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Fj, this is a post by Neil Anderson that could help explain how the enemy works in regards to temptations. Hope it helps you.
by Neil Anderson
June 10
OUR VULNERABILITY
Luke 22:31, 32
Simon, Simon, behold, Satan has demanded permission to sift you like wheat; but I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail
It is critical that Christians understand their vulnerability to demonic influence. Those who say a demon cannot influence a believer's life have left us with only two possible culprits for the problems we face: ourselves or God. If we blame ourselves, we feel hopeless because we can't do anything to stop what we're doing. If we blame God, our confidence in Him as our benevolent Father is shattered. Either way, we have no chance to gain the victory which the Bible promises us. In reality we are in a winnable war against the defeated kingdom of darkness. But the lies of Satan can gain a measure of control if we believe them.
What right did Satan have to sift Simon (Peter) like wheat? The context reveals that Peter and the other disciples were arguing about who was going to be the greatest in the kingdom of God. In other words, they were exercising pride. Sinful pride affords Satan a huge opportunity. Peter protested that he was willing to die or go to prison for the sake of Christ. But Jesus told him that, before the day was over, Peter would deny Him three times, and he did.
There are many believers who profess their faith and commit themselves to behave appropriately but can't seem to follow through. Why? We dare not overlook the reality of Satan and the ground we give him through pride and disobedience. God intervened in the early church and struck down Ananias and Sapphira because they allowed Satan to fill their hearts to lie to the Holy Spirit. The word filled in Acts 5 is the same word found in Ephesians 5:18: "Be filled with the Spirit." God delivered a dramatic message early: To whichever source you yield, by that source you shall be filled or controlled.
Prayer: Father, I ask forgiveness for any ways I have allowed Satan to control me. I want to be controlled wholly by You.
Stan
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