Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I had two big heaping bowls of hot oatmeal.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I washed up real quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I went to a Super Wal-Mart within another area of the county that I live.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I relaxed while watching a movie.After the movie was over,I quickly did some more personal PC work.After that,I prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I quickly some more personal PC work.I watched a little bit more TV before I retired for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I have been struggling terribly with this terrible SSA that I have.I have been falling into fantasies and lusting quite a bit as of late.The reason why I have been falling into this lately is because I have been very manic as of late.As I have previously expressed here in this blog and with others,including my therapists and other counselors,I have Bipolar Disorder,formerly "Manic Depressive Disorder",and this is the reason why I have been falling a lot.When I am manic,my temptations to indulge in fantasies and lusting go extremely high and I repeatedly manipulate my private parts to images of men and other things,which I won't mention,clouding my mind.Today,I gave into them and asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for that in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Later on this evening,I again went to my Heavenly Father and expressed myself on how I was feeling.I poured out to him how manic that I was feeling as the mania and other stressful triggers in my life have been triggering these things and making me sin and fall short so much.I poured out to him and while pouring myself out to him,I was also in tears as my eyes were getting watery and I felt sad for displeasing him so much with my falls into sinful fantasizing and lusting after other images of men in general and also,discovering that I had perversions that I never thought nor knew that I had,which I will not get into because I don't want to trigger anything negative in anyone reading my blog regularly and following it.Again,I poured myself out to him and told my Heavenly Father everything,including the mania that I have been going through lately and all the sinful lusts that I have been giving in to.Lust is sinful and my Heavenly Father condemns lustful stuff and intentions in his sacred word,the Holy Bible.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I would appreciate all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I really appreciate being prayed for.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ