Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and after washing up and getting dressed,I headed for work.

The work shift,which I had to make up for not working the afternoon on Tuesday,went well.After it was done,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed back out and had a bite to eat at a pizzeria in another area and after that,bought a bottle of windshield washer fluid and dumped it into my car's reservoir.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

For the last few days,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride.I have been feeling sad and depressed one day/minute and feeling some happy feelings the next.But lately,I am still feeling the intense anger and rage that I have been feeling all of my life.I have said some really terrible things underneath my breath about certain people in my life,although they haven't done anything.I don't know why I'm feeling this way.The things I've said under my breath have been very atrocious and inappropriate.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.

I have also been struggling with SSA.I have given into sinful temptations quite a few times.It always makes me sad when I give into these things.On Thursday,after I was finished with a certain thing that I had to do at my work place,I went into the office,shut the door and asked my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I felt better,but I still need to work on repairing my relationship with my Heavenly Father as I haven't been really going to him lately as a result of the intense anger and rage that I feel.No,I'm not angry with my heavenly Father at all,but I have said some really angry things to myself lately and there's nobody in front of me as I'm saying these things.I feel so lousy as a result of all this emotionally tangled mess that I'm in because I feel that I'm sinning when I'm saying these angry things to myself.

I want to let go of these negative things and emotions,but I haven't been able to.

What am I doing wrong?

What is the right thing I need to do to let go?

I need some help fellow followers and readers.Please help me.Any advice is appreciated.

I want to let go and transcend.How can I do that?

Thanks in advance for anything helpful.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding posts in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the day goes wonderfully well for me.FJ