Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good today.I did not do too much.I had the day off from work today and I thought that I would catch up on some stuff that I needed to do.These were personal things that I had put off for a while and I thought that today was a good day to catch up.
The first thing that I had to do was to mail an important personal business letter.After that,I paid a little visit to a friend to give him something that I had been meaning to give him for a long time.I even visited another friend to give him something that I had been meaning to give him.I also paid a visit to my auto mechanic to see when he was going to put the much needed repair work on the car that I had just bought.After these things,I finished the day by running an errand for my mother that was much needed by her.After that,I took it easy for a bit and had dinner.
I am now relaxing at home.I am feeling a bit better after the stress of the previous weekend.I am just glad that nothing happened on Saturday night.My attitude is that I have come too far in my recovery and healing processes to even think of heading back to the Gay lifestyle and indulging in the sinful degrading pleasures that it offers.I know too much about what lead me to having a Homosexual identity to even think of regressing.I have made a commitment never to act out with another man.I have also made a commitment never to even think about having anything sexual with another man.I know that I have to stay on guard.I can not revert back to the old sinful thought patterns or even the same old sinful activities that lead to nowhere because the Gay sexual lifestyle is a road to nowhere where the only thing that men in that lifestyle can have is never ending sexual promoscuity that can lead to AIDS or other diseases with the former being the worst of them all.Promoscuity is the only option for any man in that lifestyle and I do not want no part of it nor do I ever want any part of it at all.I am trying to save myself much heartache down the road and from catching AIDS,which is a disease I do not even want.I am just thankful that I am no longer ensnared by the lure of the Gay lifestyle and not being enslaved to an image of a nude man with an erect penis.I am happier that I am not indulging in that terrible sexual cycle anymore.I am also happier that I know the truth about Homosexuality and that truth was what set me free.Though I do weaken at times when I masturbate,I never let the failure discourage me.I just ask the creator in Heaven to forgive me and then I forgive myself.After that,the slate is clean.Again,I am determined to do whatever it takes to continue my personal journey of healing and recovery from unwanted SSA.I want to be the Heterosexual man that I want to be.This is my journey.I am going to continue on it even if it takes me the rest of my life.
While out today,I did manage to buy a couple of my favorite movies on DVD,I bought Sixteen Candles and The Breakfast Club.I am glad to have these favorites on DVD so I can preserve my VHS tapes of these.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today.FJ