Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Nothing negative to write home about.I am just taking it easy at home at the moment.The night is pretty cool but a little bit warm.Again,I had a pretty smooth work day and everything worked out for the best today.
The schedule for the Buffalo Sabres series with the Ottawa Senators will be starting Thursday night at 7:00p.m.in Buffalo.It is going to be an interesting series.Both teams are matched for speed,toughness and agility.It is going to be interesting to see what will happen in this series.Both teams seem to have some of the same things in common.
Though I am feeling okay,I am also feeling a little at edge.I am again constantly muttering angry things to myself pretending that there are people there.This was a little bit of a problem with me today.I did not do it in front of other people but I did it when I was alone.The thing is that I want to stop doing this but I do not know how to do it.The reason why I want to STOP doing this is because I do not want to do it while I am out in the community and I do not want to risk hurting someone else or even myself.I want to stop doing that for those reasons.I do not want people to be afraid of me or even afraid to approach me.I want people to approach me and accept me and not reject me.I also do not want them to be afraid of me in general.If anybody has any ideas on how I can STOP doing this,I want you to share them.I will try to apply them the best way that I know how.I am open to any advice that is given.Thanks.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day for me.I did have an appointment tomorrow with my sexual abuse support counselor but she cancelled it and I have to call her tomorrow to reschedule.Tomorrow night is my weekly support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today.FJ