Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.Despite a minor mishap at the worksite,I managed to have a pretty smooth work day.I simply did my job and when finished,I simply bagged the laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center.Afterwards,I went home after making a few stops on the way.
The other thing that happened today was that a guy who I had known for a long time came back to the social club after many years.He also asked me to give him a ride somewhere and even insisted on it after I told him that I couldn't do it due to my busy work schedule.I am learning that some people just don't care about your situation or how you feel.Though I had already known this,I am learning this again more and more each and every day.But I am still hanging in there and feeling hopeful.I did not really let him bother me nor did I let him get to me.I simply left the social club and concentrated on finishing my job.
Though I had a pretty good day at work,I still felt a little edgy and I wound up masturbating while I was online.It wasn't to pornography online but I did give in.I felt miserable but after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt better.It is wonderful to feel that you've been forgiven for what you did wrong or from relapsing.But I am still going to work on this one day at a time.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was wonderful.I had a great time talking with the guys there.We also had two new men come in and even that was wonderful.It was great to meet two new guys and hear them share and even for myself to be heard.I am looking forward to the next meeting next Tuesday and I am hoping that it is as wonderful as this one is.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that everything goes smoothly.As for the rest of the day,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ